Disappointments

So we didn't get instate tuition. We got rejected. All the work, worry and waiting was for nothing. Did they even tell us why? No. They just gave us a form rejection email saying that we don't meet the criteria. When Greg called and told me Friday morning it felt like my heart sunk to the ground. It made me sick to my stomach. We had a lot riding on that big tuition break and now it's not in our reach. It's so frustrating. I was quite hopeful that it would come through and now I just feel smashed. Sometimes I feel like I should start living by the saying expect nothing and you won't be disappointed. That sure sounds better than riding the roller coaster up then plummeting to the ground. 

For now I guess I'll try to accept things as they are and move on. While our life feels a giant pile of dog poop right now, when I'm in a more reasonable mood I know that it's not. Greg and I have each other. We have both have great families. I have a good job and after living with my work family for 2 weeks I can say I work for the nicest people. We have some great friends, in Virginia and elsewhere. We have a nice apartment. We have a car with a new transmission that works. We have good health. We have the money to pay our bills and meet the necessities of life. We really don't have it that bad. So I need to get over it. I need to move on and accept the ramifications of not getting the tuition break. 

Oh and I have to leave California tomorrow. We were supposed to stay another week but my boss' hubby has a nasty MRSA infection going on and so my boss needs to be there to take care of him. I suggested she leaves me here for a couple more weeks, but I just got the email with our flight info so I'm guess she decided to take me back with her. Back to Virginia we all go. No more beach, perfect weather and lax work schedule. Back to reality. Back to commuting in nasty traffic. Back to heat and humidity. Back to long days. Back to a crazy work environment due to construction. I'm super excited. Not. The only great thing about going home is Greg. I actually get to live with my husband for the first time in months. That will be nice, although it will be an adjustment for both of us coming off this crazy summer. 

So that's my life right now, how's yours?